I hope you all are ok and the New Year 2008 has begun with huge amount of luck .

I am so sorry that I haven’t bee writing here but I have had so much to do. My study is going ok and I am already doing my bachelor’s degree so I have been writing it instead. I have already made 38 pages of my thesis so it’s 3 to go before I can read it through and make all the fixing before I can leave it to my teacher. I have also made quite many study credit units and I am still doing many for me Master's degree. I also took a new longer course for my secondary subject even if I don’t need it but now I had a possibility take the course after all and I have always been very interesting in psychology. I notice that they had 25 credit units course of it in Summer University so I took my change even that I have already many other courses to do also but....

I am still working at ABB Oy but only for 1.5 months, so it’s coming to end finally. I haven’t yet found anything else but I am still searching and I have applied for few. I do hope I’ll find something else very soon because I need the salary and I have to work although I am studying in the same time but otherwise we can’t pay the house loan. I hope this time I’ll finally get a very interesting and nice work where I want to be for a longer time and what gives me challenge in many ways, even in a creative way what I don’t get now going through hundreds of invoices daily. It’s very boring work and not for me who is not that fastidious.

I had a wonderful course in December where I got to know my MBTI personality type and the whole course was so interesting that I started to want to know more of physiology and pedagogic. Now I know what I want to be when I grow up. I want to be psychologist, therapist, trainer, teacher or research worker in these subject matter. I know it will take a lot of time before I am there but little by little and maybe when I am something like 50 I am finally there .

I made a New years promise to try to find my self and be me in every situation. I will try to find where I am good at and what I need to develop in to become me. I am already trying to be more creative in all kind of ways and I am writing on evenings of my childhood and of everything what have been problem in my life. I also try to meditate so that I’ll find the peace and harmony to get the guts to be me. I have always been quite adapting of everything but maybe now when I am already in this age I finally will get the guts to be me and stand for what I believe in. I have also been quite afraid to show my creative work for other people (I don’t like negative critic. I usually stop if someone says I am not that good in it although I know that every one have different matter of opinion in everything so someone might like my work and someone not…) so even in that I will try find courage in. I already made huge decision last year when I started to write here and put some of my photos to the media page. I will keep doing what and I hope you all still want to read my blog, even that it might sometimes be too personal with all kind of happenings, complaining, planning of my life and enthusiastic of something what I found out.

Ok, here was little of what have happened to me in these few months what you haven’t heard anything of me. I am still ok, little stressed of everything but otherwise my life is a lot like what it was in autumn. I let you know how it goes with my job search, study and of course with finding my self, that will be very interesting journey for me. It will start with physiology credit units in this months where we have to write about our self and investigate behaving. Maybe even I start finally like my self or not….

I hope you all have a wonderful day and I will keep in contact even that it might sometimes take few weeks or even months before you here of me again but it’s only because I have now little bit too much to do.

Love Anneli