My thoughts

I started to think of this today now when I am self struggle with the job where I don’t enjoy to be. I have notice that many people say that they are not in that job what they want to be but this where they are now is ok. Someone even says right away that this is not the job where they want to be and many even have study to something else where they are now. Few months ago I talked with a man who worked at the Human resource side and he said that my work history would already tell me that I should seek for jobs like that (yeah I know I am already searhing). Usually many people as I have changed workplaces a lot and done all kind of different duetis, They usually ends up working at the human resource side. He also said that with my knowledge of so many things would make me very good in helping others who have difficultiness at their workplace.

Do people actually work with something they don’t even like or is it something else ? There are many people who says that they end up working with this and that and now they like the job but do they really do it or is it only because they feel safe in that work what they have done for years and they can it and of course the salary will come every month. Will people stay at they workplace only because it is easy ?

Yesterday I talked with my mother that I have so much pain in my neck and in stomach only because I have to sit fronth of a computer every hour and work with a lot of invoices. My mon says that yeah now you know how I have been feeling all my life and I was like WHAT… why did you stay at work what made you sick and unhappy and she said well I was too stupid to study and I was again like WHAT…. How can you think like this of course you could have study what ever you wanted to and NOBODY is too stupid to study if they really want do that. I said to her why didn’t you go to school after you got me and she was like then it was not that common for people to study when they was older and I said yeah but you could have done it after like when you was closer to 50’s and again she said now she was too stupid to study. I just cave up with her and only though how many people like my mom is out there struggling with ther job only because they can’t image them self on going to study or chaging the job to little bit easier and nices ?

Okay I know how difficult it is to find the job where you would enjoy to be (I have been applying so much of different jobs and none of them have ever even taking the contact with me…) but why stop searching if that is hard sometimes ? People who don’t have the education to be bosses can be it if they have worked many years at the same duties where they want to be boss at. I don’t think nothing is unattainable if you really want to it to happen. I also now that everyone can’t have the real dream work but why stop there because I bet there will be a lot of similar jobs where you can apply for like if you can’t be a policeman you can be a guard or if you want to work as a atronaut in Nasa you could apply for some other works at Nasa or be a pilot or if you want to be a pope you can work as a pries and then try to klimp up on the career ladder if you want to. Like they say be coutious about what you dream of because it might become true someday…. I think that everyones work is very important and all kind of people needs here in this world but if you don’t feel happy why stay in the job what makes you sick ?

Are people really working with what they want to or is’t only me who is unhappy ? I know many people who aren’t that happy but they stay there no mater what. I like many people who works as a government official are not happy because every time you need to go there and ask something there is a very unhappy woman who won’t even smile although how hard you work with getting her to smile even little… They only looks at you like you would be something bad and then they give you all the papers without any extra words…. Even at my workplace there are people who would want to do somethint else then what they are doing but they don’t want to look for something else because then they will loose the feeling of knowing everything and how bad is that…

Me and my mother sometimes entertain us self with thinking how animals would be if they would be humans and what kind of work they would be at. Like my cat Jasmin would be a boss for sure because she want to look that everything goes ok but she would be a quite tight boss, I think. My cat Siina would be nurce because she likes to take care of everything and my cat Kissen would be a model. Also my fish have some different personalitys and mostly I think that my suckfish Imu would be a very lazy worker because even now he don’t do the only thing what he need to like keeping the glass in our aquaruim clean. No, he only comes to eat when I feed them and after that he only stay at the castle and does nothing. I wouldn’t want to work with him.

How is it are people happy at their workplace ?

And it's friday again jihuu . Tomorrow will my short vacation start and It feels great. I am already eagerly waiting for our small trip to Jyväskylä. I have bought a book and tomorrow I start to pack. I have to remember to take rain cloths with us because they said yesterday on weather report that the rain will continue next week . I was so hoping for sunny wether but... well I hope it will change and that the report was wrong after all . I shall read a book from the author David Baldacci. The name of the book is Timebomb. I hope it will be a good book. It was the only one what I found cheap and was quite interesting. I love crime, fantasy and horror books. I was little bit thinking that it might feel little weird to read a horror book in the sun shine so I took a crime novel insted .

Soon it will be winter here in Finland. I have notice that the time goes usually quite fast after our trip to Jyväskylä althought the snow won't come untill November. I usually start to feed the birds and squirrels in end of September. It's so fun to watch when all the squirrels comes to eat (we usually have 7 of them) and all the different birds. I remember that last year our squirrels came quite spunky because they started to come to windows and look inside when they notice that the bird feeder, where the sunflower seeds are, was empty. Once I hears a very tiny kock at the window too so I was like WHAT .... and there sat a squirrel looking at me ... I wonder if the squirrel learned to kock on window and will it do it this coming winter also....

Yesterday I notice a funny thing with my fish. I have hear that people say fish don't sleep well my does and I almost hear them snore . Yesterday I notice that one of my smaller fish (one of the catfish) was sleeping on a bigger leaf. I almost though she was sick or something because she was really sleeping  but then I knock on the glass, she woke up and started to swim like she usually does. After few minutes she again went on the leaf to sleep. She looked so cute and the leaf just barely could bear her . My fish are quite weird in many ways. I hope they will be okay after our trip because I won't see them in one whole week. We shall tomorrow go to the petshop and buy some food tablets for them so they will have a lot of food and then I'll ask if my parents can go every second day and see how they are doing and maybe even give little food if they need it (Yeah I bet, they are always hungry...) althoug the petshop seller said that the fish don't need any other food only the tablet so.... For me it sounds little bit weird but I have to trus him with this . It's so great to watch the fish. I never thought it will be this fun  and they all have different personalities so that makes it even more fun.

Okay now I have to work little again because I have to make the invoice base so small I only can today because next week there will come a lot of new invoices .

Some of them are famous only in Finland.

J.V. Snellman:sign  posting the road to Finnish nationhood
C.G.E.Mannerheim shaping

Finnish history

Sari Baldauf, business executive
C.G.E.Mannerheim, the Marshal of Finland
Paavo Nurmi, runner, olympic champion
J.V. Snellman, scholar and nationalist
Linus Torvalds, master programmer

Political personalities

Harri Holkeri
Tarja Halonen - President of Finland 2000
Martti Ahtisaari - President of Finland 1994 -2000
Mauno Koivisto - President of Finland 1982-1994
Urho Kekkonen - President of Finland 1956 - 1982

Music

Karita Mattila, soprano Since her breakthrough in 1983, she's become one of the planet's most acclaimed and radiant sopranos

Esa-Pekka Salonen, conductor Once a wunderkind, now an accomplished master conductor and composer

Paavo Berglund, conductor
Mikko Frank, conductor
Ralf Gothoni, pianist
Monica Groop, mezzosoprano
Jorma Hynninen, baritone
Soile Isokoski, soprano
Magnus Lindberg, composer
Olli Mustonen, pianist, composer
Einojuhani Rautavaara, composer
Kaija Saariaho, composer
Aulis Sallinen, composer
Matti Salminen, bass
Jukka-Pekka Saraste, conductor
Jean Sibelius, composer
John Storgårds, conductor
Osmo Vänskä, conductor
Sakari Oramo, conductor
Linda Lampenius Brava, violinist, model

Literature

Tove Jansson Immortalised through the charm of her Moomin characters

Paavo Haavikko
Mauri Kunnas
Elias Lönnrot, creator of Kalevala
Arto Paasilinna
Märta Tikkanen
Aleksis Kivi, Finland´s national author
Frans Emil Sillanpää, Nobel writerMika Waltari

Architecture and design

Alvar Aalto Still the man to beat in the history of 20th century Finnish architecture

Mikko Heikkinen and Markku Komonen
Pekka Helin and Tuomo Siitonen
Juha Leiviskä
Eero Saarinen: architect for a new world
Timo Sarpaneva, designer
Tapio Wirkkala, designer and sculptor
Eliel Saarinen

Painting

Albert Edelfelt, master of plein air
Helene Schjerfbeck, a modernist observer of life
Akseli Gallen-Kallela

Film

Aki Kaurismäki Eccentric, iconoclastic, admirably successful and, some would say, good

Renny Harlin

Sports personalities

Kalle Palander, skier
Tanja Poutiainen, skier
Jari Litmanen, footballer
Mikael Forssell, footballer
Teemu Selänne, ice hockey player
Saku Koivu, ice hockey player
Hanna-Maria Seppälä, swimmer
Marcus Grönholm, rally driver
Mika Kallio, road racing driver
Jarkko Nieminen, tennis player
Juha Salminen, enduro driver
Veikka Gustafsson, mountain climber
Sami Hyypiä, footballer
Antti Niemi, footballer
Mika Häkkinen, Formula One driver
Tommi Mäkinen, rally driver
Aki Riihilahti, footballer
Kimi Räikkönen, Formula One driver
Heikki Kovalainen, Formula One driver
Ari Vatanen, rally driver, MEP

Today before I came to work I listening to the news and there was this cyclist competitor who didn't want to go on a drug test after the race and okay I understand that because if you have taken sometthing you won't want to loose everything when they see it in the test but why had he lied of his home address also... That is something what I don't understand. This guy have been already a very long time a cyclist competitor so woudn't he know about everything already.

After this news report I started to wonder how much the world have change in only few decades. Now you can't trust anyone anymore and you have to be very carefully in giving your personal informations to someone/something. Here in Finland few decades ago you didn't even need to clock your doors at night in a smaller cityes (Helsinki have always been little different.... but it the town also have changes to the worce in few years time) and woman could walk on a street very late on evening and nothing happened. Now you can't even turn on TV or read a newspaper without knowing that there has again happened something. There is more crime, terrorism, heckles, rapes, cons and violences to goods than ever before and the number only gets higher every year. Do people actually want to live in world like this or are we to scare to do something to get rid of the bad things ? Why does people who make these things do it and why are they like they are ? I know that some of them are sick but peoples like that have always been so how could we taken care of them better few decdes ago or have people now a days got more sick....

For me this "not trurst people" is little bit difficult because I have always been little naive and I want to think that all people are good deep (deep) inside. I trust little bit too much on everyone although I have worked with people who tries to do everything to con you. When I workd at hospital I saw a lot of things that might have fraitened many but not me. I still belive in good in people. I also worked at the Employments agency for many years and there you saw all kind of people and many of them was criminals or people who wanted to live a easy life so they make up things to con me. Now you think that I stoped to belive in people but no. I still trust everyone. Okay then I worked at the Real Estate Company as a renter and there people lied of everything, of course most of the credit reference. Yeah and I still belive in people.... I think I never can stop beliving althoug my husband is very suspicious of everything and everyone. Of couse it starts to impact on me that I hears so much on news and of peoples talks about everything so I am little more carefull that before but some how I think it's very sad when you have to all the time think how carefully and scare you need to be. It's like you don't anymore feel safe and you can't forget anything, like some night you leave your car doors open in mistake and next morning the car is not there anymore..... Or something like that. Now a days you cant' even leave any working tools outside over the night, they will have disappeared for sure on morning....

Even in my little hometown Vaasa there start to be all kind of crimes, other violence and cons so we can't feel that safe anymore, not in the same way like before. I don't actually want to live my life in fair of something happening. In my last workplace there was a worker who was so scare of everything and she didn't want to her boys to grow up and be independent. She is still really scare of leting them go out alone, go to swim, stores or some where like that and I was like thinking how can this have happened because this woman have been before a very brave one and worked in many different countries and done all kind of things there and now she is like this, a very scary woman, and she is not old, only 43 years old so I don't know how can she have changes this much after she got the children..... Is the world going to this ?

Would that be a nice wold when you can't go out anymore because you are afraid of something (crime, polution, cons, violence, people... You name it). The houses will be like strongholds/prisons so that who tries to come in can't enter. You will work from home and do shopping through very securitet computer/phone. You will only have a virtual lover and maybe there won't even be chidren anymore. Cloned people will be born as a adults and then they behave like robots. There won't be any food left because it's not safe to eat. You will get a pill what will give you all the things what body needs. And the list goes on and on, thill there is nothing left.... 

What do you think ?

Oh wonderful it's already wednesday and I have only few days to that my very short vacation will start. I am already waiting eagerly for it although I will be angry on how short it is but it's better than nothing . We had the whole yesterday wonderful sunny weather but now on morning it looked like it might raintoday, again. I hope not because I would feel for lttle warm and sun shine now and I do hope next week will be really good weather and warm so that I won't freezeout there in bushes . It will be fun to meet all these people who we have started to know from these last times when the Rally have been here. I have been to this Rally for about 7 years and my husband have been to something like 15 times. We alweays meet some new people who we start to talk with and it so fun. I don't like to sit on special stages and watch cars (only the first 20 is ok) but I like to watch people and listening what they are saying to each other, no mather what languages they are talking. Even I don't understand what they are saying I think it's fun because it's so interesting to see how they say the words and how they behave. Sometimes people notice I am checking up them and then they start to talk so that's great. I love to talk with people .

I don't know how this happens but it seems to be so that I always break everything and I don't know why. I don't know if I have a bad touch or something like that  because when I try to do something I either break it or transform it to something else . I start to have a small fair of touching things and at home I always say to my husband that can you put the dvd on because I might break it if I do it (it have happened so many times already. I only need to press one button but some how it never goes like I have planed....). This is actually quite weird because I only need to look at some machine it goes "kaput" (asunder) and I never know how or why. Okay I am not at all technical but still it won't go asunder only of watching or can it ? . I also ruin a lot of stuff and I never wanted or planed to do that but some how it always ended up bad when I have either cleaned or done something else. I don't know why this happens but it might because I never really think when I am doing something, I only do it and then afterward see what happened and get shocked. The other thing is that I am always in hurry when I do things. I have never been a organized and pedantic person. I am more like, okay this need to be done now and I hope I will get it done easily and fast. This way I also work so some jobs I am really good at but some I am not. Like go through invoices is not the best work for me because here you need to be very precise and I am not that all (not even close). I do huge amount of mistakes and then they complate and I have to clear things out (blääh ). I am not doing this on purpose but they some how thinks like that after all. I do hope to get some other work where my other great skill will come in handy because I know there are namy work like that (I have already have few of them) but some how they are always very hard to get when I am already in a workplace I don't fit or enjoy to be. I am little bit nervous over that I will stay here for a long time and I don't want to do that. I try everyday to see if there will be some other work available at the units where I know I would be a better worker but there are any yet. Hopefully come more now in August. I would right away apply for it and hope for to get it also. Hold you fingers scrossed .

Okay now I need to start to work little again. Have to ask through email if people inside ABB would send me some invoices before Cash in Time starts on first of August. Well nice to ask for invoices.... well yeah, I though that same...()

I started to think this few days ago because I notice that my hubby had again take few new pictures to his porn collection and we had even put on his side of the computer a old girlfriends pictures. He had scan them from the usually pictures. I was thinking like what is this. We have already been married for 6 years and together from summer '98. I know that then when we started to been together this girl had left him and he was really debressive and bad in mouth about it. He was so angry on her and tried to get back together but he started to be with me insted, maybe in first to make this girl jealous. Well that never happened and then he said that he loves me now and we want to marry me and everything like that. All happened really fast and it took only few years from that when we had moved to Vaasa (we met in Helsinki and he's from there, his parents live still there), build a house and got married. I though he had already forgot this old girlfriend but it seams not like that. Now I ask my self that what are happening with us. Okay I know that first love is always first love and you never get over it, it stays with yiu the rest of you life and you will always remember it.

Now me self started to think do I really love my dear husband or is it something else what I feel, like friendship and everything like that. We never felt this wonderful passioned feeling of love and happiness when we met eath other. I was like okay this is a gay who I want to know little better and I had just moved to Helsinki and felt little bit lonely. I had my friends from the new workplace and my cousins but I felt like I need little bit more and his car was so wonderful that I was thinkig like this is might be a interesting guy. I almost left him few times but we moved together and he sold all my things so fast that I didn't know where to go if we would have separated. Well like this it went few years and then he wanted to have some change in his life and we moved to my hometown Vaasa and here we have been after that. I think I might love him and I would never leave him but sometimes I do get irritated on him and I am like thinking this is not a happy life. I know that he gets often very irritated and angry on me too. 

I have actually never felt this passionate love what so many people are talking about, not even then when I was younger and change boyfriends like a gypsy change his shirt (that's a old saying here in Finland). I never like could die for anyone, I was only thinking it's so fun to get to know someone little better. I left them and they left me and always I found someone new who I "fall in love with" and forget the last one. My husband is the longest relationship that I have had and I have like get to use with him and I couldn't leave him and I also know that if I would leave him I could loose everything, the house, yarden, my parents house and everything else what I have (and what is for sure mine) because he's a very angry person who want to hurt everyone who is some how hurting him. I have notice that in these years what we have been together and of his sayings. This is little bit like fraudulent because he gets very angry when someone hurts him mentaly but he does it daily with me and he's not even caring of it. Like few years ago I notice his hobby saving porn pictures on his computer and I said to him that I don't like this because the pictures was not nice. I think that  little porn is ok and some of the pictures might even be very beautiful but there pictures was not like that, they was very dreadful and I said like no way not pictures like this. He promised that he will take them off from the computer and surf only on the better porn websites but he's still doing the thing I said no to and taking these awful pictures. He's always on these webistes when he can. I don't understand, doesn't he think I am enough.....

I never though I will be in this situation asking what love is. I do love my parents and cats, even the fish and I would be in very bad shape if something happens to them and I would do everything for them but would I be like this with my husband. I don't know.... I just remember how I felt when he was taken in to hospital and I wasn't that nervous and oly wanted to go home and finally take my dear cat with me (my cat's are not living with us because my hubby don't want to have animals and I am a real animal lover, I would have a zoo if I could) but it might be because I have self worked as a nurce so I know what happens at hospitals and that he was in good hands there so.... I do care of him a lot I know that and he's my best friend too because otherwise he never could hurt me like he's doing but love, I don't know..... How do you know if you love someone ?

Now when I open the door I have to complate little bit more so plase if you start to get bored with this text you can leave but I think like I feel to get everything out now so maybe after that everything will get better in our marriage and I'll understand my husband little better..... hey guys who are out there please explain for me this porn thing or if there some woman who have also expariense this, please tell me how did you cope with it ?

Okay here the complation continues again... sorry.... I know it's not fun to read only complations.... We have always done things in his way and his hobby and feelings are more important than mine. I know I did a bad thing in the bening of our relationship when I let him steer me like he wanted to but I am like that. I am very kind person who hates to dispute and it's so much easier to go along and do everything like he wants because then he's so much happier and nice. When I sometimes try to say NO or do as I like things he's very bad in mough and says nasty things of everything. After that I feel like it was my fault again, wierd . I never thought I will feel like this because I am a only child who is use to get everything and all the love from my parents and now I am like a door thresholds who you can walk over if you want .

I try to do thinks my way now I promise that and I also try to keep my heads up and argue with him to get things in my ways too (maybe that's why he again started to dream of his old girlfriend... or maybe he have done it the whole time but I didn't know about it before) . Like when I went back to school I argue with him about it for one whole year and then I only went and sign for few courses and now I have been there for 2,5 years and he's okay with it only complates that it goes so much more money on my school and less on his Rally (where I put a lot of money from my salary....). It's always like that I have to argue with him of everything what I like and he always says NO (he want to keep me in very short strap and control everything, I don't know why because if he still dreams about this old girlfiend and want to have her back, he could self go and be with her without caring what I think so do he think I might do the same or what is this for something, I don't actually know....). Like when I asked if I can have a own website like he have, he said very strong no so I started to write a blog insted and won't say to him anything  then our harmonius marrieage is blooming again. It will do it everytime when my dear hubby is happy and getting things like he wants. I am not that important in his eyes.

Okay now I stop campaltin and only ask, what would you do in this situation ? i won't leave him that is for sure but what else can I do ?

Today I'll tell you about something what I heard on Saturday from my mother. Her cousin phone call her and asked if we want to have some furnitures from the old house where my mother was born. It have been our family home for a very long time and for the last 30 years it have been everyones summer cottage because the house start to be very old and in bad shape. The reason why mothers cousin Anna called was that my ungle Rainer want to sell the house because he doesn't have any use of it and nobody of the family want to take care of old house and it's not like it was 30 years ago when everyone came from Sweden to spend the hole summer vacation here at the house so now he have had given it to a Real Estate company to sell it.

I was just remembering a happy memory from my childhood. It was the time when my relatives still came to this house to spend they vacation and I was something like 8 years old. It was my ungle with this family who came more ofthen and of couse me and my cousin Teresia was the best friends that time because we both was in the same older. We was playing and doing everything what kids usually do. Her younger borther Patrik was few year younger than us but he usually tryd to be with us as much he could although we tried to get rid of him because we though he was so young . Well we was exploring the area near the house and we knew that there was a empty house close and we wanted to go there and play so we took my dog with us and went there. We sat on the grass in the garden and talk about everything and suddenly we heard a noise like someone had walked on the gravel with clogs and we turn around to see whos coming but there was nobody  and we was like what  and then we started to ask eath other if she/he had heard it and we all Teresia, Patrik and me was like yes we did. Even my dog had turn around.... Okay then we thought it was something else so we continued to talk and playing with my dog Jaana. Well suddenly again we heard the same noise and now even my dog rise up and stated to bark but there was still nobody . Now we got so scared that we all four ran from the house and got back to our summer gottage. We still don't know who it was or if it actually was a ghost like we belive that time because my mothers cousin Anna told after our experience that in that very house there had someone just died recently so who knows it might have been the ghost after all.... this will alwasy be a mystery for me  

Okay I have an other story to tell where my beautiful dog Jaana was with us. Me and my mother was taking our usually walk on evening with the dog. I was something like 10 years old. We was walking at the suburb where my parents are still living. We was on our way to the place where they keep quite many horses and we suddenly saw a big animal in the brushes and we thought it was a horse what have run away from the riding barn so we was thinking that we could go past it after all but then the animal lift his head and we saw huge horns on his head  and we knew it was a big elk what had come and eat the leafs from the bursh . We all three run away from that place and afterwards we was like WOW and was lauging loud . Yeah we do have elks in the area although we live in a city and sometimes when I drive on mornings to centre of Vaasa I might see few elks on alongside the highway. They stand there looking at car what drives by and crunching the grass. They are so cute

Hey, now we have this very beautiful day with a lot of sun shine and quite warm about 22 C degrees and I am sitting here inside the house and writing my blog, how can this have happened.... Here I have been complating that it's raining all the time and we can't spend so much time out and now when it finaly is day like this I am not out. How weird, I am not a normal person... . Okay I will go out after that I have wrote few words, like you know, I have a ddiction of writening of me, me and me .

We have otherwise very relaxing day here, I don't neet to do anything special, only read a book, watch tv and eat, wonderful . Pity, that I haven't any wine bottle what I could open.... . We never visited Alko on our grocery trip now on morning. Here in Finland you can't buy wine from usually stores. You need to go to a special store to get it and they are here named ALKO. Supermarkets can only sell alkohol what have only few prosents like up to 5 or something like that but  immediately when it goes higer you need to go to Alko to get it. People have tried to get wine in a typical grocery but the health ministry is agains it so I don't think they will get it in my life time. Sadly  it would be so much easier to buy it from there and I don't think it would but finnish people more alkoholic because they who are that already buys it from Alko everyday. Normal people would buy it only for special happanings and when they want to relax and take a drink.

I also visited my parents this morning and they both was feeling ok. My father told me that he had been to our little forest this week and observed that we have quite a lot of blue berries there so he said to me that I have to go and pick them up so that I will have something to strew on my oat porridge on winter time when we finnish peole need all the good vitamins from the berries  . He also said that I have some old finnish flowers growing on my yard... yeah I know I haven't been outside lately, I didn't know about this . I shall go out and take a pictures of them when they are in bloom . I don't know how I have get them on our yeard because I haven't plant them, maybe a bird. We also have a sunflower growing near the place where I was feeding the birds on winter time so it was a nice suprise . I hope the bird what have drop the sunflower seed got a new one.

I notice when we was at the store today that a new Harry Potter book have come out now. I almost bought it but then I was thinking that all the other books what I have is in finnish so I might want to read this last on in the same language after all so now I need to wait thill March before they tranlate it, pity . I am a huge Harry Potter fan and I hope J.K. Rowling will write more books of him and the group. I have heard a rumor that she might so hold you finger crossed that she will . I love these book they are soo good, I even like the movies too but the books are better after all, like always.... so that's why I always want to read the book before I see the movie, like with the The Da Vinci Code, Hannibal, X-men and so many others..... I already did do it when I was a child I first read all the Astrid Lingrens books before I saw the series and movies. This author is actually mu most favourite one and I think she is the best ever been writer . She is for sure my idol  .

Now I will go and cook something. Have a wonderful weekend.

 I am so happy that I soon it will be weekend and I have two days off from work. hope we will have a lot of sun shine now this weekend so that I can be out little more, maybe even sunbath so that I don't look like a captain on the chalk ship ( that's a finnish saying "valkea kuin kalkkilaivan kapteeni" so I tried to translate it but I don't know if it went that good ). Now on morning the weather started nice and now we have good weather with a lot of sun shine and about 18 C dergrees and it might get up to something like 20-25 C degrees if the sun keeps shining. I hope so .

Now I only have one week before my small holiday starts. I need to find a good book before that because we usually go to the special stages few hours before the rally begins because my dear hubby want to film the whole race so he want to get a good place where you can see if something happens like the car falls from the read or something like that so then we sit there by the road many hours before the first car comes . I usually read a good book then and relax in the sun (hope the sun shines then) before there will come other peoples who start to have a lot of noise. Then I start to listening to them and watch how they behave.  I love a good horror, fantasy and crime book. The book have to be such I want to read on one sitting. The book have to be very exciting so that I will immerse in the book . Then the book is worth reading I think .

Yesterday I read from my swedish magazine that there are a lot of different and weird sickess here in the Scandinavian now a days. Here is also all kind of different allergies too. These things get more and more every year and I wonderf where all these sickness comes because like 50 years ago there was not allergic like now but okay finnish people ate food directly from nature and the meat was more clean then. Now a days many finnish people says to be more helplessy and they don't cook food like their granparents did and  of course the air gets badly here too although in the bigger cities. Now when my hubby had the thick large intestine inflamation we have to think of the food little different and actually it's quite difficult to find good and natural food anymore, everything what I find in store have some kind of food additives and I want to get my food more real. The best thing is that we still have marketplaces where you can get real vegetables what have grown in organic mould and you also have quite many flakes (when I worked at the mill I got a lot of organic flakes and I still buy the mills flakes and flours because I know they are good, The mill have tested the food so...) and other food what are organic but of course they are more expensive so that's not so good. I also like to go to market fairs because there are usually sellers from smaller farms and they sell organic food so I can buy my food quite healthy after all. Now I have to learn my dear hubby to eat healthy food too because this inflamation what he had can come again if he doesn't change the food. He was grow up with bad food and with cakes and buns. Now with me he have leaned to eat more vegetables so that even his mother was surprised and said how can this have happened . Even my hubbys father eats more of the vegetables and berries when they visit us .  I have been vegan for about 4 years but sometimes I try to eat little fish but I get stomachache of it so I don't eat it so much only when my father makes it because then I know it's made of organic fish and he doesn't use any none organic flavours, only things from his own garden . Me and my father is the same we are both interesting in good and healthy food (okay we are very similar in all kind of ways too but I am not that into working with my hands like he is, he loves to do physical works). We usually try different foods and recipes together. He always tells me what he have now tried and want me to taste it because he know my mother is not interesting in vegetarian food. She want to have meatballs and sausages like my dear hubby so me and my father have a huge job to try these two to to be more heatlhy . 

I have alwasy seen my self very healthy and now when I got my blood test result back I notice that all my samples was in the lowest rank so I am very proud of me and my body . It's like make you body your temple and treat it like that too then you feel more alive. I hope .  Now I have been listening to a hypnose cd of Ursula James. The name of the cd is You can be Amazing (like the book I read few weeks ago) and now it's realy relaxing on evenings to lay down and listening to her relaxing voice and hopefully it will help me to get more harmony with everything. I also love Wai Lanas yoga dvd's so I usually watch them quite often and do the practise so hopefully soon my body will be my spirits temple . It's also very importtant to laugh everyday too and i try to do that very often. Okay now it got little too much of new age I know .

My cat Jasmin is very sweet cat but she is also a realy good mouse taker. The problem is that she never can kill them only play with them so few days ago she again took a mouse and played with it for few minutes and the mouse was crying out so bloodly    that it  hurt my mothers hearth so she fetch my cat Kissen to do it because she is a real country cat so it took her only few seconds to kill the poor little mouse but none of them ate it because they are after all very coddled cats . When Kissen was very young only few weeks old her mother took her on a roof of a quite big barn and learned her to take a bird after that have kissen alwasy been a bird cat and she still climp on the roof of my old play hut and watch birds flying by and she now and then takes one only to keep her skills alive .

Now I have to work I again although I feel like this . Have a great friday.    

Yeah it's still raining here  but they said on weather report that we might get better weater over the weekend so that's nice. I might even sunbath little if we have that good weather .

I jumped on the scale on this morning and I notice that I have lost few kilos again so I am on my way to healthy and  better life . It will take time because I do have quite many kilos still to loose but It feels better already. 

I had very werid dream last night and I don't know where I got it and why I saw it.  Well okay here it comes I need to take a breath before I start to tell... Okay just before I woke up I saw in my dreams my dear hubby Kari having a mistress and he have had that already in few months before he told me that. After that he took her to our house and said that this is my new woman and you can stay if you want but he want to have this Maria now insted. Weid dream and it gets more weird because I am not leaving I am staying and like approving everything . Well then he start to say that he need to buy some very expensive things to this girls Marias car (she is very blond I remember). Then suddenly I am very angry and saying no way this girl is not your daughter so I can't acept it and I will have a divorce. My dear hubby start to say then that he doesn't want to have a divorce because he want to have us both. I stay few days and try to have discipline for this girl. I say to her that sory but you need to cook potatoes to your new man and you had to clean the house too because otherwise he might leave you (I actually treat her like a daughter, weird). Suddenly I leave the house and start to walk to my parents house (about 15 km). I find my self wandering on graveyard what is close to my parents house (about 2 km, we usually go there on Christmas eve and put candles on our family grave). From there my husband finds me and trys to change my mind about leaving him... Okay here I wake up and was really like WHAT. I watched my dear hubby who was still sleeping and I almost hit him . The dream felt so real and when I woke up I felt really bad. I was almost grying . The whole morning I have been like in hazy and I don't know what to think. I know it's not for real but after all it feels like that. I wonder where I got this or what the dream try to tell me. I didn't say anything to my husband of the dream .

Yesterday we got our tickets to Rally Championship in Jyväskylä. It feel great that our vacation is closer and closer everyday and soon I will see a lot of people from all over the world and maybe even talk with them something . A small funny thing happened to me on yesterday evening when me and my hubby Kari was to super market. We was on our usually weekly food purchase and I was running around in the store (like usually....). I was just taking some bread from the shelf and suddenly I hear back of me a mans voice what was asking if that bread what I was taking is ok . I turn around and there was a very good looking guy (WOW) standing and his language told me that he was from Sweden (he was talking swedish to me). Well I said to him that I like this bread and it's made from corn flour so it taste little different from the usually finnish breads. He took few of them and said ok . I wonder if he liked them too . My hubby saw this and asked me later on who this guy was. He tought it was from my work or from my study group. I was laughing and saying no. He only started to talk to me and ask of the bread, nothing else. Something like this happens me very often, stange people ask me something... I don't know why but maybe I look a person who they can easily take contact with. I usually look very afraid with my big green eyes so maybe they think I can't harm them . Well it's actually very nice and I like to help people so It alwasy but a smile on my face so I might need it quite badly too .

Okay I shall start to work again . 

Hi everyone,

I hope you had a nice night. We didn't because here in Vaasa it was again raining quite heavy the whole night so the drops what fell on our sheet roof kept us awake the whole night. It's quite weird how much it's now raining but maybe it's only this year and next summer it will again be too dry or something like that .

Okay now I will give out a well kept family secret  but for me it's actually quite cool thing but it wasn't few decades ago. Then it might have been quite bad thing but now I don't think so. Okay here it comes my grandfather on my mother side was a gipsy and that's why we still have in our family a grain of dark skin and brown eyes (I have green, don't know where I got them...). My uncle have almost a dark blue hair and big brown eyes. He looks really weird . It was a nice gipsy family where from my grandfather was from and they was not that criminal (I have heard ). They was the ones who moved around in horse caravans and told the fortune to others, they also was good musician. That quality we still have in our family but the weird thing is that none of my cousin (also their children) and me aren't that musical like my uncles and aunts are .  The fortune telling skill haven't everyone get but my mother is very good in it and she watch all kind of natural things to see the future. I also got that quality little too . My other relatives haven't got so much of it but everyone have a weird feelings now and then and one of my uncle is very good at looking on weater changes.

I actually heard of this five years ago when my aunt Mildrid was on visit at my parents house. She told us of the gipsy thing and said that it have been quite big secret because not even my grandmother Hildigard wanted to talk about this. She only told it in passing and after that never even mentioned it . I think of this more like WOW COOL  and not like OH NO like my grandmother was thinking and my other elderer relatives. I actually now understand my self better. I know why I have so short temper and is interesting of fortuna telling. I also now know why I am so social and I can't sit still .  Or maybe I got this from my fathers side or little from both side... no wonder I turn up like this . I have notice that I have got a lot of bad qualitys from both sides and then I have few of my own too , oh wow that's something  well I have also a good sense of humor so that's covers everything .  Okay I stop now...

Here In Vaasa it haven't happened that much, rain and rain again....
At work I have still the same boring duties but I start to know something of what I am doing but that helps after all not that much . Yesterday evening I got suddenly a cleaning spirit (and I must say that happens very rarely maybe once in a 10 years....) and I wash our aquarium rally good and our indoor fountain too and I put some new money, stones and flowers there. I hope it will help me to get a new job . I also cleaned few of our closets and I thow out old magazines and everything like that. It felt nice afterward so I hope I will get this feeling little more often from now on .

Okay now I have to start to work again . Have a lovely day.

Now on morning when I was driving to work I was little bit thinking of that I should write about today. First I was thinking that I will tell you something from my father childhood but the story is from Christmas time so I will leave it now and tell the story closer to Christmas . Ok I'll start with telling something general knowledge and maybe after that the real story will come into existence .

I have actually had three different grandmothers and grandfathers because my mother was adopted when she was a very young girl, only few months old. My grandmother Hildigard had then too difficult time to cope with the money and everything because her husband had just died. My mother was adopted here in Finland and the rest of the family moved to Sweden in the same time because it was so awful time for my grandmother. Well my mother lived her childhood here in Vaasa and was quite happy with everything. Her adopted mother Fanny was ok person but little bit too strong in hers religion babtism so she was a very serious person and had a hard dicipline with everything. My mother didn't really have any friends and had to stay at home although she was teen. She had a very good friend Ulla who my grandmother liked so my mother could always go to her and they could do things together without my grandmother Fannys knowledge .

When my mother met my father in year 1965-1966 (I actually not know wich one, I have to ask...). Well my father wanted to know where my mother was from so he insist on to seek my mothers "blood" relatives. My mother knew that she was from Närpiö (about 80 km from Vaasa). They was seaching and seaching. Went trough many houses asking for more informations. Well they started to be quite debressive and almost gave up but then my mother saw a house on end of the road and said to my father that this will be the last house if they don't know anything then we leave this thing and be happy of not knowing anything. Well amazing thing happened and this who lived in the house was my mothers cousine so they hug eatch other and started to talk about everything . 

Now my mother got the informations what she needed and wrote a letter to my grandmother Hildigard. My adopted grandmother Fanny was little angry about this but she couldn't do anything. My grandmother Hildigard was so happy when she heard from my mother that she wrote back right away. She and few of my uncles and aunts even came to Finland the very next summer and met my mother. My aunt Mildrid told that she had many times looked at my mothers baby picture when she was young and wondered where my mother is and what kind of person she is .  Everything had a happy ending. Now my relatives have contact with each other often. I have always kept my blood relatives for the real ones because everything this happened before I was born so I have always known them good and they become more important for me than my other grandmother Fannys family whom my mother always keep like her relatives. She have contact with them too but not that often anymore because many of them was so much older. Few I meet more often and they keep me as relative too so that's quite funny but I feel very blessed when I have three different familys. 

My fathers relatives have always been very close to me too because when my grandparents Hilma and Veikko still lived and when I was younger we usually had family meetings every summer. We have contact in all kind of ways. I see them rarely now but few years ago we had family meeting again because three ladys from my grandfather Veikkos side came from Seatle to visit us here in Finland. They was realy wonderful ladys and I enjoyed to talk with them in english . I have so much of relative that I have never felt alone although I am the only child. My mother said that when I was born she didn't want second child because I was so wild that I gave her gray hair . Okay I sometimes fell of from trees and everything like that but I was not that bad after all .

Now I have to start to work again before my boss will go third time behind me . I will continue the story of my families life next time .

I hope you weekend was nice like mine. I didn't really do anything special but on Saturday we was to Kristinesstad because they had huge marker fair there. The area was quite big and there was hundreds of sellers so it took us several hours to go through the market area. We bought some feng shui stuff (running horses and dragon) and t-shirts. I hope these Feng shui stuff will help me to get the job what I want. I am quite sad over this situation now. I was so hopping to get a new job at the Human Resource unit but they never even took contact with me altough I applied the job there . Okay I know I have been so short time here but I know this job is not for me so I tried to explain it in the application form. I hope there will soon come something else what I can apply . I actually don't know how I always end up job like these at the economy unit; taking care of invoices and calling for credit, also taking care of payment request what I actually do hate. I wonder.... because I don't even try to apply for job like this (They call me... and I try to say no.....) and always I notice of beeing on one again although I would be in a very good place before. Okay now I took this job because I knew that my last job what I had on Real Estate Company would have ended in last of July so now I have job untill 28th February 2008 but I had to say I don't enjoy to be here. Okay now I stop complaining because I know how boring it's to read it   but I have to wonder sometimes... maybe I have some feng shui cure wrong in my house or something else.... I don't think it's fate because I know I can't do jobs like this (I don't understand it..) and I feel bad inside when I have to do duties like this. Okay now I stop .

The summer fair in Kristinesstad was nice and there was a lot of people. The town is realy nice and I enjoyed to walk there and see all the old houses what they have restore. The town is quite small so there is not so much to see after all. It took us one hour to drive to that town. After we was leaving we also stoped at town called Närpiö and it's a very small town too. We ate a pizza there because they have the very best pizza in the whole Ostrobothnia so we always stop there if we can .

I just now on my lunch break read the newspaper and I notice that the Artemis Cruise Ship was on Sunday here in little Vaasa . I didn't know that otherwise I might have gone and watched the ship. I also read in the newspaper that they had interview a couple from Wales and they said that they didn't know anything from Finland before this trip , how can that be right even we here in Finland know a lot of Wales... well it was good that they now know something.... . I was thinking that is that really true and are there a lot of other people around the world who actually don't know anything from Finland... I hope I can some how add everyones knowledge of Finland  with this blog so that most of the people in this website don't need to say the same . Okay the bad thing for Vaasa was that on Sunday it was raining and the other that our store in the centrum was closed....WHAT..... how can this happen...... Okay we have here in Finland little difficultiness to have stores open on Sundays because of the church and state but now it's summer time and stores can be open from 12 am to 9 pm (the stores can have Sundays open untill end of August) so why they don't want to be open and take money from the tourists.... I wonder.... well maybe I someday get the answer to that question .

Today the sun is shining here in Vaasa and that's wonderful. I hope my laundry will now get dry outside. I wash them on Saturday evening and put them out and I thought they'll get dry through the night but of course it started to rain on morning so I never got the cothes inside before that so yesterday my laundry got wet many times . I hope I can take them inside today after that I come home from work, hold you fingers crossed .

Now I need to start to work before my boss says something.....  

Hi,

Here is my dear hubbys Rally car. He have build it him self from the peaces. It looks very nice I think. We will start to drive rally after one month.

I am glad that today is Friday again altough it's 13th . Tomorrow we might go to a summer market in Kristinestad (it's a town about 120 km from Vaasa). We was there for the first time last year and there was a lot of different sellers and many people. We planed to go already on morning tomorow so hopefully then we will have more time to go through the area without queues everyplace. The town Kristinestad is very small and close to the sea too, it's south from Vaasa. The sell market is huge and there is booths around the centrum of this town so there will be hundreds of sellers so it will take few hours to go through the market area.

Today I will on relax on evening, eat good food and watch tv. That will be so fun. I won't do anything extra maybe only read a book. Now I am reading a book of Lillian Too. It's all about Feng shui so the book is very interesting and I shall try few of her ideas. I hope it will help me to get some other more interesting job from this company where I work now.

I was at the drug test today and actually they did it wrong because I have been reading so much of law at university and the law says that the company need to take workers consent in writing and now the healthcare didn't even ask if they can do the test.....hmmmm...... . Well I didn't say this there so... everything went okay and it was little funny to pee in a cup when the nurce was watching. Okay she turn her back to me so it helped little and she was talking about everything so that I would relax . I will know after few days how it went and if they did find something.....
 
Now when I have bomb you with things from Finland I will little bit cool down and tell little of Sweden insted because that is actually my second home country. All my mothers closest relatives live in Sweden. There I have 13 counsins living and of course 3 aunts and 4 uncles with family. I also had a granmother but she died few years ago and I am still very sad of it because I loved my grandmother Hildigard. She was a very sweet person who have never done a bad thing. She lived a hard life with loosin her husdand in very young age and taking care of the children alone. She worked her whole life with two to three diffrent jobs to cope with the economy. She also got a new husdand for few years after the first one died but he started to look at one of aunts and make her pregnant (yeah I have a counsin what I have never met because my aunt gave her away when she was born) so my grandmother throw him out for good. After that she met a wonderful guy who took care of her but he liked little bit too much of the alcohol but they stayed together after all and make the life good but they never got married (Gabriel was hers boyfriend for over 35 years  and he was really sad when my granmother diet, now Gabriel is living in hospital because he start to be in bad shape and start to forget everything. He the nurces pet because they like him so much). I am so proud of my grandmother who took care of everything and lived a good life after all. Well okay I actually wasn't planing to tell that history. 

Actually I was telling that Finland and Sweden are quite different after all but the nature is the same and people are quite the same after all, the only differense is that swedish people are more femine and finnish maskuline. Swedish people are more social and sympatehic, finnish people are more blues, quiet and capacity. I love to go to Sweden because when I was a kid I spend there the whole summer because my mother wanted to meet her relatives so we was many times at my aunt Mildrids house in Falun and drove to meet others from there. I loved the time there because everything was so different and fun but okay I was a kid. There was everything else different too not only the people. They had different stuff at stores and markets and of course little bit different culture too. For me it's the same because I have always lived my life like something between Sweden and Finland. My husband says often that I am swedish when I do something weird in his eyes . Now when I am older I want to still go to Sweden every summer but now when I can't do it anymore I feel quite sad about it and I miss the feeling to go over the sea with ship and drive around Sweden. I miss the food and my relatives too. The food is quite same like in Finland but there is something like messsmör what they don't have here and falun sausage. They have also more of the white bread too. Now I am hungry .

Okay now I will work little again before I can go home and start the weekend. I can write more of the differenses between Sweden and Finland if you want.  

I had very lovely day yesterday. Actually nothing special happened but I felt lucky after all. We had still rainy weather and it was quite cold even for finnish summer weather because we had only 17 C degrees. (we usually have something like 25-30 C degrees at the summer time) I wonder how long time we will have these rainy days. It's actually quite okay that it's now raining so hopefully it won't do that after few weeks (at week 30.7.-5.8.) because then I will have my only vacation week for this summer. We will be in Jyväskylä then and watch the Rally Championship so it won't be that fun if it is raining everyday then. It did do that last year and it was not fun because it's quite irritation to be wet everyday and it was cold also so the trip end up we beeing sick in bad flue.

Yesterday I borrow my car to my husband for to day and I almost got a new car back because he had tone my car, my beautiful Skoda Octavia. Now the car have bigger tyres with cool hoops. They put also dark adhesive tape in my windowns althoug you can see through them but they are very dark so in winter time I have to be very careful so that I won't back out to someones car at the car park. They also lower my car 3 cm and put stiff suspensions. This morning it felt like I was driving an other car . It actually felt better to drive it now so I am happy although the car looks like a young boys car.... I start to think I am soon too old for cars like this but hey I know a man who is in his late 50s and he want to drive a car what looks like a sportcar and he always tones his car to a very weird car. First time I saw his car I though it was his sons car but it was his after all so... . 

Yesterday I walked at the residential nucleus here in Vaasa where they will have a big exposition of new houses and new building material. The exposition will be next summer. It was fun to see all the beautiful new houses. The area is realy close to the sea so everything looked so beautiful there. There is also a house what finnish people can vote of how it will be build. We call it TV house because people can send their expatitions by email or call the program at TV where they sometimes show how the house looks like now. I saw the house and it's really big but not a house what I would want to build and live in .

I just got a phone call here at work and tomorrow I need to go on health check because everyone who start to work here at ABB Oy need to do that and now it's my turn but the funny thing is that they will do a drug test on the same time too. I have heard of these test because many companys here in Finland make these but this test will be my first one . It will be interesting too see how everything goes and what they will say. I don't think they will find anything because I have never even tasted drugs...  but I must say I feel little nervous over it after all because you never know what they might find if they really try... I am glad that it's already on morning so I don't need to be that long time without going to toilet.... It might be quite good to talk with the nurce about my neckpain what I got right away when I start to work here and go through hundreds of invoices daily.

Now I need to work again. Have a nice day everyone.

I hope you all are ok. I am ok too and feel happy about the summer and little rain . We actaully now have had quite many days of rain so now I feel for little sun shine and warm weather again . Won't I never bee pleased with the weather we have here in Finland . I actually like the weather changes here in Finland because at the summer time we usually have quite warm weather and on the winter time we have cold. Spring and fall is something between these two but they change from year to year so you never know if they are warm and sunny or cold and rainy. Sometimes we have long and very beautiful fall but not always sometimes we get snow already in October so...we will see how it will turn up this year.

Something weird happened to me yesterday or actually it was not at all weird when I uderstood why it happened . Okay now I tell the story... . I usually go to our postbox everyday after work and yesterday I did do the same but there was nothing and I knew we should get few packages this week so I was little wondering about it but then I was thinking that ok maybe tomorrow. Well, I drove my car to garage and went uppstairs (our garage is in basement) to make dinner before my hubby comes home. I was still wondering about the post. Suddenly when I walk by our hall I notice that there was a bigger package from my dear friend and our post. I was like WHAT !!!. How can the postman put our things there altough the outdoor is closed ??? Well I was very fill with wonder and I tried to think how. I already thought that my hubby have been at home middle of the day but I was wondering why hasn't he said anything because he called me few minutes before I left from work and said that he hopes that few of the stuff what he have orderet will come now. Well I was feeling very weird about it and wondering how can this have happened. I took the car out of the garage again and drove to the postoffice to get few other packages and not until I came back home again I notice that someone have been to our yarden and chop a big heap of piece of woods. Then I finally figured it out . My dear father have been to us and worked the whole day with choping the wood what we have a lot of on our yarden. My dad was telling me that he will come this week to do it (my hubby haven't the time because he want to work with our cars inted now) but I forget it and of course he have been at our house when the postman drove by and came with the stuff. My dad opened the door and put the package to our hall. Yeah everything have it's solution... I was laughing when I undertood what have happened and I felt little stupid too but I am very glad that the postman doesn't have the key to our house like I first thought (yeah I was thinking of everything and got little scared...) .

My father did a huge work with the baulks what we still have a lot on our yarden because we have a little forest around our yarden and we try to thin it out always when we can or need a lot of piece of woods to burn in our fireplace over the wintertime. My father likes the foresty work and he sometimes come and do it when he's bored or have argued with my mother... . My husband doen't rhe job so he gives it with pleasure to my father insted. Usually they do it together over the weekends but now when my fatr stays at home even at week he can come and go like he want to and he have always liked to work outside with woods (he's carpenter but retired). It have to do something with his childhood because when he was younger (before he met my mother) he lived at countryside in a house what my grandfather build without any modern tools (he also was a carpenter). My dad always wanted to go and work in forest rater than go to school so he usually escape and went to work insted and had really difficult time to finish the school .

That was my big happening yesterday

Hi everyone !

I hope you all are fine and enjoy your week. I am not that good but it's because my stomach is very weird now. I know it have to do something with my dieting and I have already lost 7 kg so I have been little hungry too and maybe these drinks what I "eat" everyday aren't that good for my stomach. Over the weekend I tried to eat more healthy but quite a lot so that I will see if the real food will help me.

Over the weekend I even tried exercise more and that was fun but okay now my muscles are killing me . I will do my yoga practise today too so hopefully tomorrow I will feel better .

I had very relaxing weekend. On saturday I had my last test for this summer so I am happy about that. Now I will have 3 weeks holiday before my next course will start. In August I will have little boring course because it will be bookkeeping so I am little bit nervous over it but I don't know yet if I can start this course because I notice that the course will start already in the begining of August and then we will be on our vacation trip to Jyväskylä. I will loose few lectures so I don't know what the teacher says about it.

We go to Jyväskylä every year because my hubby is so in to Rally and it's time for FIA World Rally Championship, Neste Oil Rally here in Finland then. Now the competition will start from Finland so it might be really fun to be there because I can image that there will be a lot of people from all over the world. There will also be a lot of beautiful rally cars. This is actually the only rally what I like and I love to listening to people because you hear so many diffrent languages and you also see so many cool stuff what they are wearing . The only boring thing is that when you go to the special stages you need to go so many hours before it starts to get a good place so then it's quite boring to sit there and wait but I usually then too watch people and listening what they are saying. Sometimes people behav quite funny and mostly of course these who have been drinking alkohol are the weird ones . I have notice that the most drunk people are of course from Finland (know my country and the people who lives here )....but even the people from Norway and Estonia are really heavy alkohol drinkers and noisy but fun to talk with . I also like when I can walk at the paviljonki and see all the sellers who have their small hovels because they usually have a lot of clothes and other stuff what people can buy and I love to shop so I find a lot of good stuff there and then I come home with a car full of clothes and other things what I found and without money....

Now I have to start to work so I hope you will have a wonderful day today.

I hope everyone is okay. I am feeling ok but I have a huge headache and neck pain because I sitt front of two different screens daily here at work and I am still quite tense in my neck when I try to work. They said here at my work that the masseur won't come before august so now I need to wait and try to massage my self.

End of last week I notice that this company where I work now was serching for a worker to the human resource side. The job might not be that wonderful ( the duty is to take care of traveling incoives) but I would be already on the unit where I want to be because I do want to work with personnel things and help people to feel good at their workplace. This work what I applied is little boring too but there will be so much other to do too (education planing, personnel things) and not only go through 100-150 invoices everyday like I do now. I hope I will get this new work because then I already would be on the right side of the company and I could move on to better works inside the unit. Please hold your fingers crossed for me .

Otherwise it haven't happened that much here. I have been studying a lot and now I am reading to my next test what I have now on this coming Saturday. I am little nervous over it because I haven't really had the extra energy to read so now I will little use my luck and that is never the best way to do things after all . Well I have still few days time to read so I will do it and hopefully I will learn everything in time before Saturday .

I have been driving my car and I must say that my new car is really wonderful to drive . It's little bigger than my last car so I have still little difficultiness to get it inside our garage . Yesterday I was really a "woman". I took me over 15 minutes to get it inide our garage because it's little longer than my last car and now I try to put it on the same way and I couldn't close the garage door because the car was little outside still . Well I try to drive it closer the wall but it was difficult because I was little afreid that I will hit the backwall if I try to drive closer ( I didn't really see where the front of my car was...) so in the end I left the car there and said to my hubby that we need a bigger garage . He got the car inside the garage and said that maybe he need to put a plank on the floor where it will tell me when I am close enough the wall so that I can stop and close the garage door safety without damage the car . I was very happy with this.....

I hope you all who read this will have a wonderful day today.

I got yesterday I new car finally. Now I don't need to walk anymore . I found it in Seinäjoki (it's town here in Finland that is about 80 km from Vaasa). I drove it yesterday home and everything went ok. This car is Skoda Oktavia 2000 and I already like it. It's quite easy to drive and the acceleration is better than what I had in my old car so I am very happy with this car . My hubby will make it little more like sports car and but some toning on it. After that the people will notice me again like they did when I was driving my old car. I love when my car is little different from the rest of the population  I am like the young boys with their cars . I'll take new photos when the car have change little so you will see how different it looks then.